There is this Dream that I have

There is a dream that I have. A dream to see the world. To travel to its furthest reaches, to see the people who live with us on this earth. I have this dream. I want to see the children. I want to see them laugh and dance in their play. I want to see them in their homes. I want to see them in the midst of destruction and despair. I want to travel the world and be there with the people amongst the worst toil and grief this world has to offer. I want to be there. I want to weep with them as they weep. I want to offer hope to them as they heal. I want sing with them as they walk through life on this earth and remember with them that there is one who has already overcome the world and He is the one whom we serve. I want to learn their songs and sing with one voice in praise to the Lord our God and King. There is this dream that I have. I want to live it.

A New Song

such a sweet sound of sorrow haunting my soul,

what is this melody? I recognize the tune.

the steps of my feet match the beat as I move with my heart

what does it mean? I feel lost in a soul full

of this haunting melody.

hear the wind in the background? listen to its lonely howl.

it is a part of my song.

you asked once if it was ok,

if I would mind,

if you asked me to always be sad,

I said no, I wouldn't mind.

but now, you ask another time

would I mind

if I chose to never be sad.

now my answer is harder to know

can I say yes? this song is a part of all I've known

I love the haunting tune

I'm used even to its harsher melodies

you want me to give it up?

give up my tears? give up my loneliness?

sacrifice of joy,

can I even do that? what would the world look like

without pain?

I used to run from the pain,

run away and run to, cover my face

but hide in the wings

of pain.

can I give that up?

I did once, you asked me to and I did,

I didn't want the pain,

but today, it feels so a part of who I am.

who am I now?

if I say yes I will have to learn to dance to a new song

a song of a new heart.

what does that mean? what will that look like?

will it be beautiful? beautiful like your laugh? like your smile?

I have seen the pain, stood my ground and faced it.

Now I can turn away and leave it?

what does that mean?

is turning away different from running? I'm done with running.

I don't want to run away, but dancing to a new song, I can do that.

I will run to you, my Lord, the musician of my life.

And if that means I leave the pain behind

then God bless the day,

I learned to dance

to a different song.