such a sweet sound of sorrow haunting my soul,
what is this melody? I recognize the tune.
the steps of my feet match the beat as I move with my heart
what does it mean? I feel lost in a soul full
of this haunting melody.
hear the wind in the background? listen to its lonely howl.
it is a part of my song.
you asked once if it was ok,
if I would mind,
if you asked me to always be sad,
I said no, I wouldn't mind.
but now, you ask another time
would I mind
if I chose to never be sad.
now my answer is harder to know
can I say yes? this song is a part of all I've known
I love the haunting tune
I'm used even to its harsher melodies
you want me to give it up?
give up my tears? give up my loneliness?
sacrifice of joy,
can I even do that? what would the world look like
without pain?
I used to run from the pain,
run away and run to, cover my face
but hide in the wings
of pain.
can I give that up?
I did once, you asked me to and I did,
I didn't want the pain,
but today, it feels so a part of who I am.
who am I now?
if I say yes I will have to learn to dance to a new song
a song of a new heart.
what does that mean? what will that look like?
will it be beautiful? beautiful like your laugh? like your smile?
I have seen the pain, stood my ground and faced it.
Now I can turn away and leave it?
what does that mean?
is turning away different from running? I'm done with running.
I don't want to run away, but dancing to a new song, I can do that.
I will run to you, my Lord, the musician of my life.
And if that means I leave the pain behind
then God bless the day,
I learned to dance
to a different song.
