A New Song

such a sweet sound of sorrow haunting my soul,

what is this melody? I recognize the tune.

the steps of my feet match the beat as I move with my heart

what does it mean? I feel lost in a soul full

of this haunting melody.

hear the wind in the background? listen to its lonely howl.

it is a part of my song.

you asked once if it was ok,

if I would mind,

if you asked me to always be sad,

I said no, I wouldn't mind.

but now, you ask another time

would I mind

if I chose to never be sad.

now my answer is harder to know

can I say yes? this song is a part of all I've known

I love the haunting tune

I'm used even to its harsher melodies

you want me to give it up?

give up my tears? give up my loneliness?

sacrifice of joy,

can I even do that? what would the world look like

without pain?

I used to run from the pain,

run away and run to, cover my face

but hide in the wings

of pain.

can I give that up?

I did once, you asked me to and I did,

I didn't want the pain,

but today, it feels so a part of who I am.

who am I now?

if I say yes I will have to learn to dance to a new song

a song of a new heart.

what does that mean? what will that look like?

will it be beautiful? beautiful like your laugh? like your smile?

I have seen the pain, stood my ground and faced it.

Now I can turn away and leave it?

what does that mean?

is turning away different from running? I'm done with running.

I don't want to run away, but dancing to a new song, I can do that.

I will run to you, my Lord, the musician of my life.

And if that means I leave the pain behind

then God bless the day,

I learned to dance

to a different song.